"i don't want to miss a single autumn evening..."

I thought I would do a little bit of recapping from my weekend, and then go on to explain what the next few days hold in store, as well as what I am thinking right now. I have done a lot of thinking these last few days(as I usually do..) but right now I feel like I should get it all off my chest. Here goes: brace yourself!

On Thursday I left for Utah. I was so excited, I couldn't even stand it!! I raced around my apartment frantically before my last class, packing for the upcoming weekend. I headed off to class with my backpack (completely stuffed) and a mini duffel bag. I felt a little ridiculous as I walked across campus with all my stuff, but it was so worth it! The very thought of being back in Orem was enough to make me scream with excitement. When I arrived in Utah, Jessica, Tyler, Diego, and Rachel came over for Pancake Night!! Grandma thought that the invention of chocolate chip pancakes topped with mint ice cream was incredible, just like when I tried them for the first time. It was so much fun!

Halloween on Friday was amazing. I woke up at 12:00!!!!! Haha that's probably enough to tell you just how great that day was. Jessica and I set up the decorations downstairs for Grandma's Halloween party. The Halloween party she threw was a blast. She had all these fun little games planned. Afterwards, Jessica (my cousin who I love so much!), Talia, Kristilyn, Andrea (all 3 of my roomies!!), Tyler & Tim (boys from my old single's ward), Diego, Sean, Travis, Gabby, Mike & Zach (2 of my fhe brothers + one of Mike's friends), and I all went to the Haunted Forest in American Fork!!! It was amazing! I loved it!

On Saturday Grandma took me shopping for my birthday. She bought me lots of cute clothes and a super cute hat (She bought Tal a hat, too!!). Talia and I went to the Creamery where we met up with one of my best friends from Rio this summer (Stephanie), and some of Kristilyn's friends, and Kristilyn's brother David. (I wish BYU-I had a creamery!!!! We are going to start a petition to get one *wink*) Grandma took me and Stephanie to "Nights in Rodanthe" and then we went to a graveyard with a bunch of friends and watched a movie.

Sunday was perfectly relaxing. We went to church at my old single's ward, then came home and took a nap while watching "Beauty and the Beast". The weekend seriously flew by! I was so sad when it came time to leave for Rexburg.

Today was a sad day. I'm not really sure why. I just woke up and felt so grumpy and depressed; all I wanted to do was crawl back under the covers and sleep some more. I went to my english class and started writing an essay that really depressed me. It brought back all these feelings and that for years I have tried to suppress. I guess I still feel like it was all my fault-I am the one to blame for the event I am writing about. It breaks my heart each and every time it is brought up. I almost started crying in class, but managed to hold it until I reached my apartment where the tears flooded. I came home from child development and felt so tired. I wanted to take a nap so badly, but I knew it wasn't going to happen. I discovered after my roomies came home from cross country that Talia was in a lot of pain. I saw her eyes filling with tears. When I asked her what was wrong, she wouldn't tell me. Finally, she explained how her back and neck had been hurting all day and she didn't want to tell me. Whiplash. (Yesterday, after church, we were driving home from church. We reached a roundabout. Jessica tried to brake, but the car wouldn't stop. It wasn't that bad of a crash. We only jolted their car from rear-ending them, however, Talia isn't doing so good today. She is suffering the effects that come after a wreck and it broke my heart to see her so sad. It then absolutely broke my heart later talking to Jessica on the phone. I don't think it was her fault, not really. The weather conditions caused the accident. Without hydroplaning, there is no way we would have ran into the other car. Anyway, Andrea didn't feel that great tonight either. It seems our whole apartment was just down in the dumps today. Hopefully it will cheer up tomorrow...

On a happier note, tonight I asked Colin to the Preferance Dance on Saturday. My roommates and I made up a song to ask him:

(To the tune of "Jingle Bells")
"Colin Stong, Colin Stong
Colin all the way - Roomies singing

Will you go to Preferance
With me on Saturday? - Me singing

HEY!! :)"

Anyway, he said yes and I am really excited :D

Election Day is tomorrow!!!! I am really nervous/excited to see who the new President of the United States will be......VOTE YES ON PROP 8!!!!!!!!!

I think I will quickly go over my goals from last month and make some new ones....

OCTOBER GOALS:
1. Keep up on homework and reading assignments-
PASS!! Hasn’t even been a problem ;)

2. Morning & Nightly Prayer & Daily Personal Scripture Study-
FAIL. While I say my nightly prayers daily, I always forget morning prayers. I also tend to think of “roomie scriptures/prayer” as a cover for the days I don’t do my own personal study. That needs to change.

3. Get back into a good sleeping schedule-
Fail. I still go to bed around 3 am. This month I am going to aim for a 2:00 am max. We’ll see how it goes…

4. EAT HEALTHY-ER!
Fail. As I started out eating healthier, it is so hard to when Ben keeps making us yummy desserts and we always have ice cream in the freezer. This goal is still on.

5. Go running every Monday, Wednesday, Friday morning-
Complete FAIL. I am so embarrassed to admit that most of these goals were unsuccessful…..

6. Make more friends & remember their names-
SUCCESS!! I am getting much better at meeting people and remembering their names.

7. Make the Fall Formal the hit dance of the semester!!
SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Enough said 

8. Keep up with writing missionary letters-
Successful. I have a routine down! I just need to get some more postage stamps…..

NOVEMBER GOALS:

1. Morning Prayer & Daily "Personal" Scripture Study
2. Be in bed lights out no later than 2 am. HAHA how sad...
3. Eat Healthier/Exercise: I think I'm going to get one of those funny exercise tapes.....hehe
4. Keep up on cleaning my bedroom and the kitchen
5. Spend an hour a week taking pictures/Playing with them on photoshop to add to my porfolio
6. Decide on a major: ElEd, 2+2, Child Development....

I will report back on these at the beginning of December.

I love you all. I hope you are well. I hope you are happy. May your lives be filled with laughter, smiles, and singing. Have an amazing day <3

-Me